finally something not about sex… hahaha…!!!
hey people who read my blog, guess wat, i met someone today, he’s appearently the oldest HIV carrier in aus… a friend of mine ask a favour from me to help him to be his cameraman for his interview which is how i met this guy… he’s a really cool guy, have aids, n he’s 59 yrs old this yr, so aids might not kill that soon huh… so that means i can still fuck alot… lol… that not my point this time, i’m out of my sex topic, something new after all huh… ^^ just a small little thing that he remind me of, he’s that old n he have aids, he said this "i should have been dead mid 20" n he’s still standing like a normal man helping uni student out doing their project… cool ei… now what he really reminded me of was hey, death, something that use to bother me, and i’ve already solve long time ago… what i’m trying to say is, i use to see through death n able to thorw it behind me n ignore, basically mean can die any second… but now that i think of it again… hmmm… guess wat, i’m scare… wat if i die later? next morning while i’m walking to uni? get electric shocked when i off my room light? or anytime anywhere… what’s there to worry about since i’ve already solved it? it’s because i’m diff now, i use to have nothing n want nothing, but now that i have so many friends that care about me, family that i can would miss my laughter, company that i cannot give up, movies that i wanna make, n people that i love… i sort of can’t leave them n die liddat rite…. not saying that i’m gonna kill myself, i’m just thinking about d reason y u wasn’t affraid of death but now i am?
it’s because i have more n i want more, true that people say when u have more, u’ll want more, therefore u’ll never have enough… for me really not money, just enough to support my family n people that i wanna help that’s enough, friends… not too many either, there’s a chinese saying "in ur life time if u ever meet a best friend that will never betray u n understand u u can die without regret" hey i have more then 1 of that… family? haha… it’s broken apart but hey for those who know me, we r closer when we r apart rite…? ^^ wat else? lover? HAHAHA…. the whole world should know the girl i really love n almost turn me gay… i’m straight now… (just wanna make things clear) i’ve loved even it didn’t turn out well, n it still hurt, but atleast i’ve got some1 that i love whom loves me in return… my life is pretty much complete… wat else did i left out… hmm… guys believe me or not i wrote this with tears hanging in my eyes….
i’m seriourly thinking, if i have 1 more day to live, who will i wanna see… hmmm… wat i wanna to wif them or him/her… the answer is… no one, because if i see anyone he/she will feel happy, and the others will be jealous, lol… n hey if i don’t see anyone, everyone will miss me for the rest of their life, n remember me for the rest of their life, n they’ll feel sad that i’m not here anymore… haha… i’m selfish but hey, if u who ever that’s reading this don’t cry in my funeral, i’ll come haunt u lor… lol… muahaha… ^^ so make my funeral full of tears, the more tear fall from ur eyes that mean the more u’ll miss me rite… hehe… so be a part of the WET funeral… haha…. OMG can’t believe i’m saying this, Kenny wat’s new from u… it’s all about S_x lol… well it’s me after all….
oh anyway guys seriously if i really die, for get about me, n go on with ur dreams, don’t even u dare allowing my death helding u back towards ur dream for a second, if not i’ll haunt u down… ^^ K!!!!! or choice 2: remember me n take my death as a motive to push u to ur dream, because that’s wat i wanna see… u guys to be happy… ^^ really……
anyway i love u guys, n enjoy life….
Cheers!!!! let go drink some god water(ALC/spirit/hard liquor/wat ever it is that makes u high…. not drugs guys) hehe…. ciao… n no worries i won’t die so soon, no worries about the white gold muahaha…. ^^
